With everything that has been going on in my RL, I’ve been struggling to do things WHEN I SAID I was going to do them. Releasing books, showing up somewhere, stopping my writing for the day, all of these are things that I was always on top of. No one had to worry about whether it was going to happen or if I was going to show up, they just knew in their heart of hearts that I was the one person they could count on. Now I’ve been labeled as unreliable and I hate it!
I hate that I’ve let people down, both in author life and real life, but most of all I hate the labels that have been placed on me recently by others. However, no matter how much I hate them, they show that I’m human. That I make mistakes and sometimes I fail. Sometimes I have to break a promise because of what it might mean for someone important to me.
Now, I’m not saying this is okay. It will take time to rebuild up that trust with each and every person I’ve let down in some way over the last few months. And today is a small step for me in that journey by sending out this newsletter out to all of you on time.
I can’t promise that I’ll never let you down again or break a promise, but I can promise that I’ll continue to strive to be better than I was the day before. That I’ll let you know when and if I can’t keep a promise. And most importantly that I’m always invested in what I’m doing.
Each and every one of you reading this email, a Facebook post, a blog on my website, or one of my books are important to me. Not just because you help me take care of my family, but because you support me through the good, bad, and ugly. Trust me when I say this is a safe space for me. I feel like I can tell you my thoughts and feelings with no judgement, and for that I’ll be eternally grateful.